desire of my heart
“You know what I long for, LORD; You hear my every sigh.” (Psalm 38:9)
Desire. Deep-seated desires are within each one of us. Some are hopes and dreams we have for ourselves, or they may be an unspoken want for our marriage, or something we’re hoping for our children. Regardless, desires of our heart run deep.
God knows what they are. For each one of us, He knows our deepest desire. It’s not uncommon for us to have a hope we might feel silly sharing, even with those closest to us.
How can we know our Father cares about the details of our lives? His Word confirms His love for us over and over again.
“Take delight in The LORD, and He will give you your heart’s desires…
The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.” (Psalm 37:4,23)
Our role is to delight in Him. To spend time pursuing Him, in His Word, sitting in His Presence, enjoying Him. As we turn to our Father, He meets us, overwhelms us and we see Him move.
The beauty of these verses is how much God delights in us. We rarely consider this. We’re prone to think we need to perform for Him, get everything just right, and we will be accepted. It’s like we’re hoping to make the cut. Those are lies whispered to us and they become insecurities. The truth is our Father loves us beyond comprehension.
Celia and I saw God respond to the desire of our hearts, with our children. We moved from a strong community, in a private Christian school in San Antonio, to a public school in Austin. The school we moved to is a great school, in a great community. However, making the transition from private to public, in a brand new community, was terrifying.
We had invested ourselves in our San Antonio community. The youth pastor at our old church was great and we were comfortable with what was next for our kids. Our oldest was heading into high school, in a new, more open environment and it raised fears for both of us. We prayed, and prayed, and prayed some more, asking God to protect our children, to captivate their hearts with a desire for Him.
God’s response has been incredible. It actually took me years to understand all He was doing. But one day, I looked up and realized He had surrounded our kids with an incredible youth pastor at our new church, leaders in our church, Young Life leaders…and all of them loved Jesus, were crazy fun for our kids to hang out with and follow. If we’d stayed in San Antonio, our kids might have had 2 or 3 leaders in their life. In their new school, God had answered our prayers by surrounding our kids with 5-7 leaders each. Our kids aren’t perfect, but they’ve been so positively influenced by others who love Jesus, I can’t imagine a better place for them to have gone to high school.
So what’s the desire in your heart? Chase after your Father, The Father who loves you beyond comprehension, and speak your desire to Him. Lay it out before Him and watch Him move. And I bet His answer will be greater than you dare to hope right now.
“And remember, He who implanted the desire does abundantly above all we ask or think.” – F. B. Meyer