"As soon as we abandon ourselves to God and do the task He has placed closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with surprises. When we become simply a promoter or a defender of a particular belief, something within us dies. That is not believing God—it is only believing our belief about Him." - My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers Conventional wisdom tells me to be careful, balanced, to keep from getting too far in front of myself emotionally. In the face of having a sense I should respond to something the Lord is doing, why is my first reaction to seek conventional wisdom? When I look at Creation and I read God's Word, it becomes apparent to me there is something beyond me, you, our conventional wisdom and our capacity. Right? I mean Isaiah 55 is right, or it's not:
"My thoughts are completely different from yours", says the Lord. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55: 8-9 NLT)
So, knowing God is there and His ways and thoughts are higher than mine...why do I struggle to let go of conventional wisdom and abandon myself to God? Abandon sort of flies in the face of common sense and logic...doesn't it? The trickiest part of following God is to abandon myself to Him. I can't see Him to get an impression or see a look in His face, because He is Spirit. Yet, when I abandon myself to the Father and am obedient, I get a life filled with surprises.
In Matthew 14, after a long day of healing many sick people, Jesus' disciples approached Him with a problem. They were in a remote area and the logic of the disciples was on the mark. It made perfect sense to send the people home. The disciples were being great friends, good stewards of Jesus' time, their resources and they were looking after the people. Only, they were talking to Jesus! He wanted to do something great...Jesus had in mind to feed 5000 men, and probably another 10,000 if you count the women and children, with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish.
We follow Jesus. I think it's easy to forget that nothing is impossible with Him and to substitute His miracles with our common sense solutions. The danger of believing my belief about God, instead of believing Him is that I miss being a part of what He is doing today. When I draw lines of what I am comfortable with, what's right, what's weird, and limit in my mind how the Lord can move, I'm no longer believing God, but I'm believing my belief about Him. He's alive! He's living!
If I abandon myself to God, it's like I quit saying I believe with just my words and I begin to say it with my body, with the rest of me. You know...I'm in...You, Lord, can count on me to respond first by looking up and saying "I got these 2 fish and some bread...and I can't wait to see what You want to do this time!"
As a church, we're in a tense and awkward moment. This Sunday, our service is "A Call to Restoration", at Hill Country Bible. Although it's comfortable and normal our path of least resistance, let's not run back to conventional wisdom and begin to lay out the lines of when, how, where and what the acceptable ways are for God to move. Let's just pray for Him to show up Sunday and move in a way we never forget. Let's pray we hear from him. I'm hearing something is up...and I agree.